To My Subscribers;
It has been a while since my last post. Since that time, I have ended the premium plan for this page. You will most likely start seeing WordPress adds on my page now. It also meant the loss of some of the more recent content. I will not be able to get the lost content back. I apologize for this, but it’s better than the other alternative.
Frankly, I have been thinking about ending my blogging efforts. When I started in 2005, I loved to hear myself talk. Now, I honestly doubt whether my thought have any value and, to be honest, I have grown tired of hearing my own voice. I’d rather just be that quiet old guy in the corner who soaks everything in but keeps his thoughts to himself. Even if you ask him for his opinion, he doesn’t want to answer and, if he does, he says little and it doesn’t seem to mean much. That’s who I think I’d like to become now: the guy people always laugh at because they think he’s just a crazy old man.
I say this because I’ve started to think I am crazy. It’s either that, or I have started to see and understand things in a much broader, far deeper level than anyone I’ve ever met or read — ever! Since that strikes me as arrogant in the extreme, I think the better choice is that I’ve finally gone crazy and, if I have, I have no business talking to anyone about the things that go through my mind.
What’s more, this ‘seeing and understanding’ applies to both the ‘secular’ world as well as the Scriptures. In my mind, they have blended into one grand mosaic that stretches the whole of human history. Oh, don’t get me wrong: I am not claiming to know everything — far from it! In fact, I think I know and understand less now than I ever have. It’s just that I understand where things fit into the bigger picture.
It’s actually hard to explain. It’s like one of those pictures of the Twin Trade Towers made up of pictures of all the people who lost their lives that day. Up close, you see the people, but from far away, you can see the bigger picture. Well, I see the faces, but I also know where they go in the big picture. No, I may not now the exact spot they go, but I know what general section they go in — like I can see the color or shade of the bigger picture where the smaller face belongs. Like I said: it’s hard to explain, and this is the best I can do. But it is very real — at least, it is to me.
In fact, it has gotten so real that I can almost predict those things which are going to happen next. Again, no, I am not saying I am some sort of profit, or that I can see the future. It’s more like, when you watch enough TV shows, you start to recognize patterns in the story lines. After a while, you can see the pattern of a show in the first few minutes and predict — in general terms — how the show is going to turn out and who is going to end up being the ‘bad guy.’
Well, I am starting to see the world this way, and it is all the stuff of cosmic spiritual warfare. In fact, it has become so much so that I no longer think in terms of religious and secular. Now, I think in terms of YHWH and His opposition. Now, I would be more than happy to explain this sort of stuff. I’d write about it all day long, but no one would read it. The more likely outcome is that it would be used to put me into the crazy farm.
So, I have watched, and the world has continued to go down the path I expected it to travel. If you have followed me since the beginning, you might remember a post I wrote on The Rio Norte Line. It was about how the U.S. was traveling down the path of 1930’s Germany. I wrote that article 2013 and, today, looking back, it seems almost prophetic — but it wasn’t. I had just read enough about history, and about what the political leaders seeking to ‘transform’ America had written about what they wanted to do and how that — like TV shows — I came to see the pattern. Once you see the patterns, you can never un-see them. It is how you will always see the world.
Now, I see the patterns, and that tells me how things are going to turn out — in the general sense. The net result is that it has put me into a place I cannot explain. I’m not depressed, or suicidal, or anything like that. I still have hope, but not in Men, or in anything human or even material. I know now that America’s Founders started an experiment in self-governance that — ultimately — proved that Man is incapable of governing Himself. Robert Winthrope was right: we will be ruled either by the Bible or by the sword, but we will be ruled over! Seeing the truth behind those words, and how it has manifest in everything I see these days, I am equally sure of the ultimate outcome — and that has lead to a profound sense of needless loss.
So, rather than try to write in a way that holds all of this back (which would be faking it at this point), or worse, trying to help others see and understand what I am seeing — and why… Well, to be honest, I’ve been beating my head against a wall for 15+ years trying to explain simple material things to my readers. Why would I subject myself to the frustrations that are sure to come if I expand my efforts into trying to explain that the Scriptures are real, and that they are coming true before our very eyes?
There are more than enough people out there who are already convinced they have those answers for you. You can go find one of them. I know I don’t have the answers. I never will. But one does not need to know ‘the hows and the whys’ to see that something is. ‘Science’ knows that the thing it calls gravity is real, but ‘science’ still can’t explain why it is, or how it works. Well, the Spiritual battles I see reflected in this material world are that way for me: I can’t explain them to you, but I can see them and tell you what comes next — I just don’t want to do so. That’s all.
I don’t want to do it because I am convinced it would do more harm than good. Those who already understand don’t need me to explain it. They already see it. And those who don’t see it will never understand because they will never read and research what I write about in enough depth to prove or disprove the truth of my words to themselves. Those people already know what they know — even if it isn’t so. They will never be moved from their beliefs because it is their source of comfort and security. What I offer them is anything but comfortable and secure. Therefore, either way I turn, all I can do now is harm others. Even if it is just myself I harm, I still cause more harm than good.
And so, I have kept quiet — until now. And now — unless something major happens to change my mind — I am going to remain silent once more. I’ll leave the page up, in case you still want to read it. I’m just not sure I have anything of value left to add to it, that’s all.
2 thoughts on “A Quick Update”
Joe, I am sorry you feel this way. Personally I have enjoyed your posts and have benefited from them. I have learned a great deal from you and always looked forward to your posts but respect your decision.
I apologize to you and anyone else I may be disappointing, but it’s like I said: YOU already know all the stuff I write about, so I am not really teaching you anything. I’m just expressing things in new or different ways. TO ME, that’s just talking to hear myself talk.
Maybe this is just something I have to get past. I don’t know. This could all be self-pity, or a back-handed form of pride. I honestly don’t know. All I know is that this post is an honest reflection of how I feel right now.